Love, Life and Puppy Dog Tales

If only there was more. More time. More space. More energy. More togetherness. More opportunity. More. If only all our dreams came true. Dreams of happiness. Dreams of flight. Dreams of loved ones, once lost, now back in our lives. If only we hadn't.... hadn't had one more piece of pizza. Hadn't said that hateful word. Hadn't run that stop sign. Hadn't shut that door. Hadn't forgotten to say I love you. If only we knew which way the road led as we traveled on our journey. If we knew where it went, would we go faster? Or would we go slower? Would we go at all? If only. But it is not to be. What we have is what we are meant to have. If onlys only take us places we can never go. And only make us feel bad for never being able to go there. I am beginning to learn that life is about to cherishing what is. It is also about learning to not let important moments pass by unnoticed. It is about looking for beauty in all that we do indeed have, in and around our live...

If you know me at all, you know if there is one thing that I am comfortable with, it is my sexuality. I have been an out lesbian for 20 years or more. I have always just been. The fact that I have a partner has never been something I have been ashamed of or hidden. But.... For the first time in a very long time I had a moment of uncertainty... a lack of feeling safe maybe? A long time client was in yesterday. She saw my name tag and recognized the last name as the same as someone she worked with. Indeed, it was my partner to whom she referred. She asked if I knew her, saying my partners name and my head matter of factly said, "yes, she is my partner." but my mouth just said "yes". Some how, for some reason I stopped. And I did consciously stop myself. I offered no more. She said, "I work with her. She is nice." I said, "I think so too." and again, left it at that. She looked at me strangely for a moment, but I offered no more inf...

Timing in life is everything. As I drove into our back parking lot on Friday after lunch I saw this Red Tailed Hawk come in for a landing. I crept ever so slowly to where the hawk was perched on this tree. The hawk was gracious enough to pose for me and I got this shot. I was alerted to this rainbow the same day I got the picture of the hawk. I quickly got my camera and took this photo. As I tried to decide on more, the clouds changed and I watched this rainbow just fade out of site in a matter of seconds. Don't let your next opportunity fade out of site before you take the chance to be a part of it.

You don't know just how much you need a thing until you suddenly don't have it anymore.... Sigh. Sorry. No pictures to show. Although this week I got an awesome shot of a Red Tailed Hawk in my office's back lot. And a fabulous shot of a rainbow that parked itself in the parking lot across the street from my office. As well as a great picture of the only piece of sunshine available Friday morning. ... I was so pulled to that shot I actually turned around on my drive to work to get it. But alas, my computer had an issue. Not a small one either. And a very good friend had to come fix it. You can translate that to reformat it. It is all because of this photography class I am taking. I couldn't find my English version of my manual so I went online to download a copy and poof, my computer suffered a meltdown. So, in the aftermath, I have to get a new copy of Adobe Elements, because I can't find my original program ... it is probably in a box still unpacked beca...

I got here by going to Cabe Nelson's site http://cabenelson.wordpress.com/ where he talked about the rule of sixes he got from someone else.... the instructions were to go to your sixth file (photo/documents) on your sixth folder and blog about the photo. And it made me smile! Ahhh... to the good old days... it is so weird to say that this was last year! But already it is February! I swear I just barely had a nap between Cabo and now, but nearly 4 months have gone by..... This was the view from the resort. This is the only light house around. And the golf course is the Jack Nicholson golf course. And before you ask, no I didn't go play... the fact that it was $250 for a round of golf was discouragement enough. Oh... and the fact that I don't play golf also figured into that decision. But I did walk on that beach. And I did lounge, if ever so briefly, in that ocean. And I took more photographs on that beach. And I made lifetime memories.... Next adventure!

I have two assignments from my photography class.... the first one is to read the manual to my camera... great idea, except the only one I can find is the Spanish version. That should make things interesting.... The other assignment is to bring a favorite photo to class and there will be a discussion about what makes a memorable photo verses a snapshot. So now I have to decide on a photo. What have I gotten out of this class so far? Don't be afraid of where the art wants to take you. I have laid down beneath Christmas trees, shoved couches and tables out of my way, laid down in my door way, and crawled around on driveways because it made sense to me to do that to get the shot I was drawn to. So it was nice to have that validated in this class. So now I am taking the road to.... wherever it goes.

The sun's not quite ready to poke its face up above the ridge top yet, but it is giving hints that it is planning to do so. I find myself wishing for some kind of clouds in the morning as I drive to work so that I can maybe get a really cool shot. I take my first digital photography class today! I am so excited! Enjoy!