Death of a week

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I so desperately needed this week to be over. It is the beginning of the holiday season and in my job, that means it's the beginning of the death season. Statistically, the number of animals we put to sleep goes up sharply, for whatever reason. This week, I helped to euthanize 5 young dogs and cats because of things out of my control - all medical issues that caused them horrible pain or extreme illness that could not be corrected. The age range was from 3 months to 9 months old. One was a puppy that belonged to a good friend of mine. I managed to get through Thursday before having a mini breakdown at home with my wife. I know it was all for the best for every one of the animals, but to have so many in one week was a bit much for my mental health.

So I hope to put this week behind me and go onto the next week and find some kind of joy again in the job that I do.

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houndlady said…
Dear friend, thank you for your love, support, and hugs during our time of need. You are amazing in the job that you do. Not because of the job, but because of your kind and giving spirit. Your kindness and concern during a very diffecult time, made it a little more bearable. Thank you for all that you do. You do make a diffence in our lives and those of our beloved animals.
December 26, 2007 at 12:19 PM
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