Thursday, May 29, 2008

Deep Breath

Never has that been more necessary than this week. Take a deep breath. And then another. And another, until your head is clear and you can move on. Hopefully the world around you becomes clearer and perhaps easier.

In the space of 24 hours I learned that three people that I knew had died. None were expected by me. The things you never knew about a person! One of them I knew and had spent some time with, but never made the opportunity to learn more. One of them I hardly knew but was expecting to see the day she died. And one of them I enjoyed seeing whenever she came around.

The latter I have pondered much. I never knew she was sick. I have known her for years, but never knew that she had cancer. She shared her grief with me when her husband died, but never let on to me that she was fighting her own battle. She laughed every time I saw her. She had her demands, but none were unreasonable and all were easily achievable. When she would call, I was glad to talk with her and listen to her worries about her little ones and offer help in the ways that I could. And I never knew she was ill. Just one day, she was gone. I struggle with a question I ask myself... did she know that I thought she was a wonderful woman?

And then there was the one I wished I had known better. Could have known better, but time just never presented itself to make that opportunity happen. Kind of shocking to have someone you know who is younger than you die. Totally unexpected and so far unexplained. Sort of makes you rethink things in your life.

Lessons this week?
You can never find more time... you have to MAKE it.

Take nothing for granted. Never assume the loves in your life know you love them. Make sure to tell them at any given opportunity.

Spend time watching your dog. Learn to imitate his actions. Watch him notice the little things... and then move on. Watch him take pure joy in fresh cut grass and see how utterly happy it makes him. Infuse a bit of that simplicity into your life and perhaps life won't seem so difficult.

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